....I have been standing in front of this (currently blank) page for a few minutes.
I wanted to talk about Love this week but never mind, I do not feel like talking about it at all. I have a lot to say and, at the same time, nothing at all. I feel like an ignoramus wanting to share her vision on something that is slipping through her fingers.
Maybe today I can deal with the phenomenon of desire. Sometimes I am convinced that I have needs other than feeding, shitting, peeing, hydrating and sleeping.
I think of affection for example. When this happens to me it is a specific need experienced as a lack. I then convince myself that this desire can only be satisfied in a physical way and by a form that I would define as external to me.
When this type of thoughts attract my attention I confirm the relevance of their existence. It is a question of convincing myself that they are a matter of life and death.
It's the brothers and sisters drama. Get out your piano, your black clothes, call the mourners, roll around on the floor in disarray. Because what? It's so powerful the conscious that here is a part of my reality orchestrated by my thoughts! Clape Clape. Not a pretty sight.
I come to the stories that I and you were creating in your head. Things that are completely made up but that we have become so used to considering as true and as being us that when it comes to differentiating them from reality, that is to say from what IS (no judgement/opinion) it's a real pain.
And then when you realize that all this was only in your head I do not tell you the mess. It means that I was never consciously present? Always in imagined thoughts? That these thoughts created my reality?
Reading this you might wonder what the fuck is she writing about? Thoughts? I don't have that many. You're a brainiac, lady.
I suggest you start meditating or you can try to concentrate on your breathing all day long. Supriiise! This is the discovery of your brain that begins! You're thinking all the way through!
Finally, desire is said to originate from conscious and unconscious thoughts. These last ones depend on lived facts, on what we have seen, retained and on what we have drawn as a conclusion from previous experiences (Yolo the quantum pro: yes yes and again yes, the past, present and future are only one). And from your perception, where does the desire come from? To answer this, have you ever observed how it manifests itself? What influences it inside you?
Big hugs,
PS: I wrote this text a few months ago. At the moment desire is no longer something that manifests itself in this way. That's right! I'm doing the mysterious 30 days mega transformiiing challenges. I'll tell you about them once they're done ;>
I'm not forgetting the 31 days Yoga Revolution report that I followed (I'm starting a new 31 days series).
Go! I'll let you navigate your own adventure <3
Merci
- Marie Mazeau certified teacher. Guiding with gentleness, mindfulness and Joy in Paris and internationally online.